Mutterings

Today is 30th September and it is raining which is novel.  So much gorgeous sunshine.... Monty the cat has taken to staying out all day and coming home at 3/4 o'clock in the morning - last night my panic was that he had been caught by people using cats to train fighting dogs!  Could not let that go until 3.30 when he woke me up walking on the bed and curling into a purry furry donut.  Got to stop the panic and just let him be a cat for god's sake.

Just paid my second 'bus lane' infringement fixed penalty - Huddersfield are making a packet.  Woman in the post office said that so many people are coming in to pay this stuff, often twice over like meself.  The signage is appalling and counter intuitive.  Bah!

Went to Far Cry (acapella singing group) auditions last evening.  So interesting waiting to see if I have made it in.  Can't spell it obviously....... Will get email inviting me to next weeks gathering if I have .  All part of living in the real world :-)

Tonight ( in the same vein) I'm going to the Theatre!  Lawrence Batley in Hudds - going on the bus.

Post equinox 2016

OU gone now and I feel as though I'm grieving - lost a friend!  Beginning to go out into the real world and take on new things, sneaking out and then burrowing back home sharpish.

I feel as though my world has contracted and I only exist in a small portion of possibility.  Its not really as if I feel this is ok or not this is just how it is.  Strange.  Is it wisdom or am I depressed?

My other brother, Pete, (still not heard from Rack since flooded caves in Cornwall) is disappearing into Parkinsons.  So bloody sad. However much we didn't get on I did know him hale and hearty and now he is different and so obviously dying.  He has immense mental determination, which while it won't do anything for his bodily functioning, will keep him going.  He never complains apparently.  Love for life is strong and in a way invincible.  I cannot begin to imagine how it would be from the inside.

The houses are approaching, still only that one sold.  Churned mud where the orchard was.

I want to post something life enhancing.  I'll have a look.